It`s been almost two weeks without you, two weeks of emptiness, two weeks of feeling hopeless and helpless. Although, I was really happy I could hear your music everywhere and see how much joy this brought to people. Everyone was singing, dancing, they couldn`t believe it, but they all remembered the lyrics. Once again you brought us all together. I`d really wish you could see and feel the love and respect of people. You knew you were loved, but maybe there were times when you felt people forgot about you. NEVER ( and I know they never will). I`ve been asked how can I cry for someone I didn`t know. Well, you once made me cry in 1996, seeing you perform live in Bucharest. I never knew a concert could make me so happy, could really change me as a person. Those were happy tears. And now you make me cry once again, because something inside of me died with you,`cause heaven couldn`t wait and you couldn`t say NO to the angels, like you promised. I`m sad that many of those praising you right now, pretended to be busy and turned their back on you when you needed them. Where was their love, their respect then, what happened to the solidarity at that point? Yeah, I didn`t know you personally, but I didn`t need to. I know you through your music. It may sound cheesy or superficial, but I really feel that by taking a good look at your lyrics we can all understand what a nice human soul you were. The shy, polite,playful, kind, romantic guy who liked to have fun, who wanted to make others feel good, who cared for those in need. That same guy who on stage was unstoppable, unreal, the perfect entertainer, yet so emotional. The complete artist : great composer, dancer and singer ( just listen the song in the end...). Instead of focusing on your personal life, on all the "Tabloid Junkie", we should respect your "Privacy" and your world, at least now. And we`ll better focus on your wishes : " We are the world", "Heal the world"," Earth song", " Cry" - beyond great hits, these were your beliefs and represented your hope of changing the world. Perhaps you were right saying " I can`t do it by myself...", but we still can and it`s easy to start with : "Take a look at yourself and then make the change".
I`m not going to write about what will happen from now on, I respect and love you too much for that. I just hope you`ll be able to feel the love of everyone today at the memorial and that it will turn out like a celebration of your life and spirit. We`ll still have your music and I wish you found the peace you dreamt of and that from up there you`ll continue to watch over your children and over all the children in the world.
I love you, Michael! ( too bad, i can`t hear you saying it back anymore)
I`ll leave you with Speechless, cause it`s my favorite song of Michael and also because that`s how I `m feeling right now after saying goodbye to him.
P.S Maybe we CAN make a change "If we all cry at the same time tonight..."
